this is one of the picture with her during her illness, that was the chair where she normally sat to watch tv, relaxed and pondered
Since i was a small girl until now, i would spent the time with her and her siblings , we shared laughter ,stories , ate together and spents most memorable moment in life. Until i further my studied for a better future enhancement we were separated ,because i need to leave them to pursue my goal , but when i went back to my hometown , Bintulu , i cant waited seeing her , cant wait sharing new stories , same goes to her , she was one of the most happiest person on earth when i returned to my hometown.
and i would ensure i bought something special for her as a remembrance , she would be very happy...just cant forget that cute smiley face . I love to see her smile and laughed because happiness sparkling all over her face.
She was the person who always listen to my heart , who always there when i needed her , the only person to bursted my frustration and my sadness when i was sad , she was the person that i always hugged when she needed me and she was the person for a shoulder to cried on.We knew we needed each other.
When we went to Sarawak on Hari Raya Haji 2010 after holiday in K.Kinabalu, as usual i would visited her , spent the time with her , we shared story and lots more, when came my last days in Bintulu because i need to return to KL where i stay for work etc, the last time i hugged her , just clearly remembered, that time i felt i just cant let go that hugged , i hugged her longer than ordinary and usual hugged as before , she said " Yam...please forgive me for all the wrongdoing if any and please 'halalkan ' for all kind of food and drinks shared. That time i knew already , that she would leave me forever , i knew it , but i was tawwakal to Allah ,praying that we will meet again this year in 2011 because she was one of the most important vvvvip in my life beside my parent, my sibling and my family . Normally, all those years when i came back to my hometown and when it came to time i need to return to KL she would said " please take care of yourself and your family and please come back again to see me so that we can share the most memorable time again " ....Few days before she passed away, i kept on dreaming about their old house in kpg Sebiew ,about nek ngah , nek anjang and Nek Wak . This was the signed actually of her departured , and the signed that the other siblings were waiting for her,on the ''another world '' belong's to Allah.
On 26thJan 2011,morning at 2.30am morning when my sister , Norini called me saying that makcik's body was already very cold , meaning that she was no longer in this tiny world ,a signed that she was already passed away , i felt like i was going to be fainted , and after that called i took my 'wuduk' i prayed and recited Yassin for her dearly.. and i cried the whole morning until my eyes was swollen and i cant slept until morning ...until 6.30am and i wake up passed ten in the morning i packed and my hubby sent me straighted to the airport looking for flight to Bintulu....Luckily there was available seated at 2.30pm an i safely arrived in Bintulu at 5.00pm because the flight were delayed. I cant managed to see her body/corpse anymore because she was already buried at ten in the morning at Bukit Kamunting Muslim cemetery. Only on Friday , 29jan 2011 my dad brought me to her grave and i recited Yassin twice for her , u cant imagine my tears bursting out that time,like a waterfall at the NiagaraFall ,i guest ,non stop until i finished recited Yassin.
But, Syukur Alhamdullillah i followed everynight Jemaah prayer and Tahlil Arwah for 3 continous night held at her house,which was behind my parent house. She refused staying with us because she said that house got special memory with the other sibling staying with her before ,which had passed away as well previous2 years ago and because she needed some privacy..but easier for us to visited her, just few steps away ,behind only.
It was sad because i cant take care of her on her last Day because i was apart here .It was sad because on her last days i can't kissed and hugged her and i cant hold her hand for the Kalimah ,AsshaduallaillahailaLLah...until her last breathed.Thanks to dear mom and my sister , Norini and my dear niece ,Aja and other family member who always took care of her and always there for her when i was not around , only Allah will bless and grant you all for your kindness. NekChik @ "Mak"Chik , u will always remains forever in my heart , your tender love ,your soft voice will always remains in my ear, the moments we spents together i will never forget it forever. Thanks for your dear and tender love ...even i still need it , and i always do....i will always miss u ...forever and will forever remain in my heart ....Our Loves and Prayer will always there for you forever.May Allah bless you, May Allay accept you as one of the good person and May Heaven will granted for you..Amin...AL FATIHAH ...will always remains in my prayer and doa for you...AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN ....
AL FATIHAH FOR : CHIK BT ALI
Departed on : 21 Safar 1432 Hijrah@ 26January 2011
~Puteri Mariam~
